we all live in a yellow submarine.........

well well well, if it isn't the ol' bloggity blog. the dreaded blog that i stopped writing in for reasons i don't know. i guess i just stopped having time for it, which is probably a good thing because it means i have a real life outside a computer? i don't know

hmmm update:

*i'm a real live gypsy now, just like i've always hoped i would be. i have all my stuff in storage and i live out of a bag. one week i'm somewhere and i don't know where i'm gonna be the next. i've met more unique individuals in the last 3 months that are so raw and have enlightened me... more than people i've met in the last couple of years. it's truly refreshing. i've heard stories from them that have amazed me.
now some people might look at that like i'm a bum or crazy (hint: certain family members) BUT i truly believe if you have an open mind and free spirit you look at that and think wow, that would be so great. i've always heard and thought that the idea of running away and starting over is so alluring but i'm not necessarily running away because that means that i'm running from something and i'm not. i just opened my eyes and realized i am young and healthy and i can change my location and experience anything i want at any time. yes, sometimes money will be short but it's worth it.

zee is working as a land surveyor just he has been since he was 16. they send him different locations and pay him tons of money to be outside pretty much and take measurements. it's wierd for me to have the freedom of no job and be able to explore whatever city i'm in and still be taken care of. i always joke around and tell him i'm a moocher but he always insists that i'm not and that he's merely taking care of me. so domestic, i know... who would've thought.

man, and just this week i found this town's library (and this is the oldest town in LA by the way) and it was amazing! i have an obsession with libraries and this one is so great, and its near the cane river which is beautiful and lined by giant twisty hundreds of years old oak trees. and the road is brick and so old, like something out of the movie the patriot.

and another observation from LA- we went and saw step brothers (which was wierd that they even had a theatre and it's tiny and the only one for miles and miles). oh my gosh, no joke. every person knew each other. there were girls telling other girls across the room in the theatre that they're hair looks cute because they cut it..... wierrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrd. and then at the library women all knew each other around me and were talking about revivals that they just went to haha

and did i mention love love love? yup, i'm in love. this is exactly how love is, you know from the very beginning and have no doubts about it and when you know that there's no one else for you but this person...... it's wonderful. we're always just in awe that we're with each other. after seeing each other our whole lives and remember things from when we were little and then now..... so many years later we're together and absolutely perfect for each other. it was so bizarre for my family to come visit and they already knew him and my dad made copies of pictures for me of me and zee when we were little. just the fact that my dad had pictures of zee when he was little is so cool (sounds creepy right now hahahaahah) sigh, and i was so worried there for awhile that i wasn't going to find someone i loved as much as eddie, i tried with a few but didn't work out. they just didn't measure up. but now i finally have, my love for zee surpasses all love i've had in any of the few relationships i've had. it's so refreshing, i was really worried about finding a love that surpassed that old one.

it's craaaaaaaaaazy. our romance should be a movie haha for realsssssss BUT don't worry, i'm not that naive. it is really hard work. we've already had our share of arguements and such, it sucks. i didn't forget it's hard and you have to work at a relationship but i did forget HOW HARD you have to work at it. but it's so worth it in the end.

well i really wanted to type more but i'm over it, i have more wonderful things to do todaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. i've been trying really really hard to maintain friendships with those i love. man it's hard. the only ones i currently do that with now are liz and jessica and occassionally lindsey. i really want to start keeping in touch with gabe, mark, and tommie more. they all mean a lot to me. i suck, but i am doing the best i can. so there gabe, i know you're the only one that reads this! you are such a good friend!


love you all, no matter who you are, even if theres no one that reads this.

until next time- peace