Question: Since i was born, with every person, no matter who they are, as soon i as i talk they zone out within 5 sec and most of the time interupt me with something meaningless to say like 'look at that bird, wow, what a cool bird. oh i'm sorry, go ahead- what were you saying'. yeah, like i really want to say a word now. some stupid bird just go your attention over me telling you my most personal details. i know not every person i've ever met has ADHD so am i really that boring? am i really that dull? no matter how boring another person might be or how cool some stupid 'bird' or whatever else is going on around us i ALWAYS stay tuned. i don't interupt and say something meaningless. i guess i just came to this realization that this sucks and it's hurting me really bad. it makes me feel like i'm dull, boring, used, and most of all- someone that says only unimportant things.
maybe this is the way it is in the world, not interupting with meaningless things to say is just a social norm that i live by. it's just sad to me because everyone does it to me (except maybe my dad), i'll listen to people talk forEVER and when i want to say something i can't talk for 5 sec without something bad happening. maybe i'm just a whiny baby, because i sure sound like one. but there might just be someone who one day reads this and knows for a fact that this happens to them too and i'll be that much less crazy. i really need to vent i think. i just want somebody who asks questions about me and wants to know stuff about me, who is so intrigued by me that they want to know more more more. not like obsessive but constantly intrigued. good ol' brandon boyd said it best, 'could you show me dear, something i've not seen? something infinitely interesting'. one day hopefully possibly i'll get what i'm craving.
wah wah wah, i'm such a poor innocent baby haha
OBAT PENYAKIT HERPES
10 years ago
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