loser

i'm getting sued by someone from an accident that was my fault that happened 3 1/2 years ago. my dad called me yesterday and said papers were served but another kind or whatever my dad could get. wierd. anyways, that guy's a loser. he walked away without a scratch and i was the one that got my shoulder messed up from it. and his car wasn't even totaled and mine was. sooo....... what a loser. he's probably trying to scrape up some extra change to save his house or something because the economy is so bad in CA right now. that's my theory at least. so i'll keep this updated the more i know.


i'm bored but not. i can do anything i want to during the day. i've been shopping and spending money but i feel too guilty doing it. i'll probably go back to barnes and noble today and read, i like to do that monday through friday so i can get a good spot to read. so i am kind of bored, but i think it's just bored o f mississippi. i'm ready to move on to the next state now. me and zee were talking about that last night. the job he's on now is going to last for 2-3 more months and he's gonna try to get sent to another state. i hope they don't send him on another job in MS. it would be southern MS which would be different but still.... there's a rumor about Colorado, i hope it's true! then i could go skiing all day!!! FUNNNNN. so zee is gonna start teaching me stuff since he got promoted at work so on the next job i can be his helper person. then we'd be getting 16,000 a month. booyah............. that would get us to our goal so much faster!

deplete bills + condo investment + another house investment + save save save = travel and live and other countries!!!

me and zee see the big picture, it's so great. so when we have bad days or work sucks for him we know what the big picture is and it makes things better.

i think everyone has a big picture in mind all the time. you think 'i just have to do this for this amount of time so this thing(marriage, promotion, retirement, kids, money) will happen later on'. but it's a scary thing that happens (that i've felt before) when you do the same thing over and over and over again without getting anything from that big picture. so you get in a rut that you can't get out of unless you stand up and make a move. i had to move to OK to do that, CA was leaving me in a rut doing the same old things with people who even when i went and visited a year later were the exact same people. which can be a good or bad thing. soo... anyways, my theory is that you have to find the balance between living for that big picture but not too much or you'll end up like my grandma and grandpa who worked for retirement. was on the brink of building their dream house on a ranch they already had bought but suddenly he was diagnosed with cancer and died i think 6 months later. and they spent their whole lives running toward a dream that they never got to touch. geeeesh, i learned so much from them and that situation when that all happened.

hope everyone out there is wonderful and enjoying life to it's fullest.

peace and love homies