Rock on young saviour, don't give up your hopes.

IT'S OFFICIAL!

I'm officially alone and independent in my own condo. for the first time i have things from my room .... outside my room! I have never been able to officially take ownership and now i can. how do i feel? scared, alone, anxiety-filled. geez, i never thought i'd feel this freaked out. but then again i have always been a spaz so i guess it's a given. but i love the way i decorate and i'm so freakin spoiled from my grandma, even though she did it for hannah when she first moved in. she took me to wal-mart and got me every little thing i would need to start. so now i'm set and it feels great. i just feel really low not hearing anybody else in the condo. it's just too darn quiet. i wanted that this whole time and now i don't know what to do with it :( too wierd.

there's this really cool warehouse store that my mom said she used to shop at. it's worse than a thrift store but one man's garbage is another man's treasure. there were so many cool things, just a few chips and tears here and there. i got two pairs of dressy work pants for like 8 bucks each, craaaaaaaaaazy. and people out here don't like the same cool stuff as 'californians' so scooooooooooooore. i get all the good stuff.

i really hope my potential roomie moves in. i love living by myself but i don't think i'm ready to be this alone unless i'm like 40 and unmarried or something.

I haven't been up to much lately, went to the dueling piano show again friday night, getting kind of old... it's fun and there are so many other fun places to go but our only friends and hannah and ryan always choose that place haha. school saturday which i did pretty darn good on my test for only studying for 2 hours the night before.

i'm so sick of moving stuff around in here and gathering hannah and ryan's crap to get out. i'm exhausted. there's still so much to do, but it's fun stuff.

i'm watching a really funny episode of seinfiled...... alone.... when george keeps sleeping under his desk at work. so freakin funny, i should really buy the seasons on dvd.

so after going through withdrawls from CA i decided no, i won't move back.... way too stupid to do that. so i'm just gonna live here and invest my money with the condo, finish school WHILE visiting 3-4 times a year since i can afford it now.... i think haha

so next stop: July 4th weekend, yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy