woah

i'm pretty sure there is no one that knows what to say on a first blog except saying that they don't know what to say in their first blog.

I guess I can try to explain to myself why i'm doing this silly thing that airs out all of my thoughts and feelings that can be somewhat private. i can choose not to ever say anything personal in this 'journal' but what's the fun in that? everyone wants somebody to have an interest in what they're thinking, yup... i think that's the very reason why this website could become so popular. it's very liberating.

................................ my name is rachel. i live in oklahoma in a condo with my sister, her new baby, and the dad. my life should be a sitcom. but not for long, they are moving out the first week of april and i'll have this place all to myself. i'm not really sure why i'm here. i mean i know the reasons that i tell people why i'm here; nursing school, CA too expensive, family here. which is all true but i know there are deeper reasons to why i'm here. everyone has a fascination with the other side that always seems greener, i know this is mine and it really is greener. but then another place will always look greener than here, never ending cycle through life unless you put a stop to it and just enjoy where you are.

it really is sad that while i wasted my time editing this stupid confusing public/private journal, i never once edited anywhere anything about my faith. i've come a long way to be where i'm at today with God and what a good, solid, and understanding relationship we have with each other. i miss a lot of people right now, some of them have no idea that theres this little person in the little oklahoma missing them so much. wow, how girly. ha. okay i'm starting to embarass myself. the end for now. not a bad first bloggity i'd say.